today, the 1st of aug 2008.. wz ma 1 st day 2 coll afta d long long gap, a blend of fun, boredom, excitement , shopin, partyin, chattin. danzin,etc..etc....
i waz all loaded wid excitement n joy of nt only goin bak 2 coll n meetin all frends bt also coz now i wz a senior..i cud b a bit bossy n state commands..hehehe..had dat gr8 feelin....
bt sumwhr deep down in ma heart...i wasnt really happy..sumthin waz pinchin hard.....waz unable 2 carve out sum things.....bt wat was it???
n den sumhow d day pased bt still i wasnt really happy.....dey wr a few unanswered ques....i felt as if m lost sumwhr.....
dat very day.....i took a short nap in d evenin n i saw myself in a supa large dark room surrounded on all sides by gunny bags fillin d room from roof to bottom....i waz lost....
n then waz startled by ma mom in d midst of d dream....!!!
now i realize i waz lukin 4 ma future..me myself..the answers i ll b searchin all dese 4 crucial yrs of ma life..how 2 remove this darkness....???
thr r dark roadz all ova .....i cant even c ma goal den how d hell will i trace d way 2 it...????
ppl go muddle in choosin thr paths in lyf...bt i don even know whr ma roadz r...whr they ll begin 4m....???
all dese ques r hittin hard on ma mind ......i feel as if m standin on an aloof piece of land wid a heavy heart..!!!
i hav a new plannin each day n a new commitments 2 maself...bt ...???
wats all dis happenin...is it crap??
i neva write blogs...bt m writin 1 2day...coz i had d urge of it.....n cudnt resist it...!!!is it d wiring of ma brain n beats of ma heart r nt synchronised......???
dis hasnt happened 2 me eva in life....
m lost in ma own words n thots...!!!!!
save me.....i feel i ll drown sum day.......m lost!!!
am i srsly lost???.........
gosh!!!
