today, the 1st of aug 2008.. wz ma 1 st day 2 coll afta d long long gap, a blend of fun, boredom, excitement , shopin, partyin, chattin. danzin,etc..etc....
i waz all loaded wid excitement n joy of nt only goin bak 2 coll n meetin all frends bt also coz now i wz a senior..i cud b a bit bossy n state commands..hehehe..had dat gr8 feelin....
bt sumwhr deep down in ma heart...i wasnt really happy..sumthin waz pinchin hard.....waz unable 2 carve out sum things.....bt wat was it???
n den sumhow d day pased bt still i wasnt really happy.....dey wr a few unanswered ques....i felt as if m lost sumwhr.....
dat very day.....i took a short nap in d evenin n i saw myself in a supa large dark room surrounded on all sides by gunny bags fillin d room from roof to bottom....i waz lost....
n then waz startled by ma mom in d midst of d dream....!!!
now i realize i waz lukin 4 ma future..me myself..the answers i ll b searchin all dese 4 crucial yrs of ma life..how 2 remove this darkness....???
thr r dark roadz all ova .....i cant even c ma goal den how d hell will i trace d way 2 it...????
ppl go muddle in choosin thr paths in lyf...bt i don even know whr ma roadz r...whr they ll begin 4m....???
all dese ques r hittin hard on ma mind ......i feel as if m standin on an aloof piece of land wid a heavy heart..!!!
i hav a new plannin each day n a new commitments 2 maself...bt ...???
wats all dis happenin...is it crap??
i neva write blogs...bt m writin 1 2day...coz i had d urge of it.....n cudnt resist it...!!!is it d wiring of ma brain n beats of ma heart r nt synchronised......???
dis hasnt happened 2 me eva in life....
m lost in ma own words n thots...!!!!!
save me.....i feel i ll drown sum day.......m lost!!!
am i srsly lost???.........
gosh!!!
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u know wat....
wat all u felt today...d same thing many ppl discussed wid me...d very same thing...dere are many unanswered questns in ma mind 2...not jst today bt from many dazz..n dese answrs, we hav to find ourselves...coz nly we knw d best, wat actually we want...
for ur words, i can nly say dat dere's no need to get depressed 4 ur future..for ur paths...coz nobody at dis stage of lyf, exactly knows wat he/ she wil actually achieve in lyf....i knw u hav faith in GOD n u shud hav faith in urself too....jst keep working hard...jst keep giving ur best to evrything....n don think abt dese things....if evr need arises...ur family, ur frnzz, me n evry1..are alwazz dere to help u reach ur path n walk thru...so jst don think abt all dese stuff...keep working hard...n keep njoying hard too...as u alwazz do....coz dis is d nly 9cy dat evry1 lyks to see....hehe......so chill...n njoy for nw...n still if u wanna think abt all dis....den we all r wid u in ur depression too....so do u really want us ppl to be in any deprssion...thinko....??
haha....arrey yaar...abi dere's no need to think so deeply n seriously...abi to gate n gre paprs are stil alive 4 us....n u wil surely get into sm big universities.....so pleezzzz chill...chill....n chilll
kk..??
baaki baaten milkar discuss karenge....bt abi ke liye plzzz... wry not...n keep smiling..coz u hav frnzz to wry 4 u...haha
tk cre...
n bst of luk 4 evry thing in lyf...
ar itz easy 4 u 2 say..n gud 2 think dat wayz.... bt its buildin up false hopes in me....
n life isnt cracked dat ways....ask urself??
asku...aur kinna asku..??
since last 2-3 yrs ol dese questns are making even my nights sleepless...n wat i got in return...nothing...no answrs...n i knw i wil not get dem until i achieve smthing...bt dis much faith i hav n u too shud hav dat we wil achieve smthing...smthing gud....bettr from wat we feel today...
from wat all i hav sufferd i feel 9cy u wil nevr get answrs to any of ur questns...n dere s no use of thinking abt all dese...i hav undrstood it..quite late though..bt u hav to realise it nw nly othrwise it might get late 4 us...
9cy actually evry1 at dis stage of life feels lyk dis nly...be him a mbbs seeking guy or b.ed seeking....bt wiinr in lyf is nly dat who leave dese questns unanswerd n move ahead..n smtyms its becum necessary to leave sm questns unanswrd n move ahead...dis is wat all i feel...baaki its up to u nw...in wat terms u wanna take all dis...bt doshtt..plzzz..don think abt all dis..n get bak to ur own self...d real 9cy....alwazz fightin 4 evrything n njoyin evrything to upmost level...
tk cre....
its not only ur story.
many of us fighting the same battle of aimless wandering.though we play n enjoy but wen it comes to answer ourselves many of us cant answer wat r v going to do.actully (acc.to me)we r not luking for aim but luking 4 passion n desire towards that ultimate goal.we all knw wat options we have but we dnt hav passion 4 them.so the only path left(acc. to me)is to rule out ur destiny n take charge of ur life in ur own hands.this may sound abstract but only we have to find out where we wana c ourselves in the end of this game called LIFE.
so dcide how u want to utilise life,dnt go in deeper meaning just in the superificil level n the field dat intersts u superficialy,think abt it at deeper level.
start the game in reverse manner:
VISUALISE URSELF after 20 YRS n then come back to present n i think this wud b able to give the path leading to that final destination.
if u ask me abbhi ki wat i want to do may b i wont b able to answer but if asked abt 20 yrs after i wud surely like to b a resercher like MEENU mam working for HUMANITY n discovering the unseen unknown world..........
i think this wud b enuf,rest SATSANG baaad me [;)][:)]
dnt worry
agar kuch nai hau to hum saare AIMLESS LOG MILKE 1 DAARU KI FACTORY LAGAYENGE[;)][:)]
no..u guys dint get ma point..!!!
tomo holds d best n bla bla stuff.... r very gud english lines n can pacify 1...
bt ...
u say..keep on workin...bt dats wat i dono....how 2 go abt it???
how 2 fold things??
wat 2 do 2day....whrz d beginnin...
dats y...m lost!!!
for now.....
i can nly say...dat keep moving along wid d tides..along wid evry1 else....may be..u may find answrs to all ur questns in d path itself...so don think much abt all dis...
bt still, if u wanna sink deeper n deeper into it....den do go ahead..!!
thanx a tonn..!!!
Well, I guess I would be the last person on this whole fuckin' earth who can actually reply to this blog, because i do care a lot more about the bottles of vodka i would drink then the subjects i have this semester.
But as I read it, I thought its better if I do reply it.
Anyways, "M lost" doesn't really happen to be only her life's gaga topic of the day.
But I guess, Everybody's!
I don't really get to see people who do what they wanted to.And maybe not many of us would do that either.
Ask yourself, Of ol the people who are doing engineerin, actually how many wanted to do it?
And Of ol of them who thought this again after they entered engineerin.
You don't really ever see a bulb or a lamp at the end of the tunne; as books say. Its how you churn for it.
And trust me on this, Some way or another we always ever are confused.
And we are lost ( read confused ) because wh have options.
I din't really get why were you lost, but trust me..
Sometimes its good you let the things go the way they are, Because Fate may not be relied upon but is always something we would always believe.
I happen to be a big believer of karma and trust me.. If you are doing something, You always wanted to, you would never fail and you would never be lost.
So do your karma girl, Life is too dime a short too actuall y think where you went wrong and what you did right.
Its just the ' Karma' that really counts.
May you not be meeting your daily goals, But make sure you achieve some part of it, that gives you happiness and make you take yourself in a better light.
Life is what you actually want it be. So make it yours.
Do whatever you want to , Beacuse in the end that what you want out of your life.
In the end, I may not be such good thinker and I may be one of the most freakiest, good for nothing carefree kind of guy,
But trust me, Never underestimate yourself.
Because the way we are, be sure we are always someone special. :)
And yea, if i din't pacify you go on and check out Art of Living!
Lol :D
thanx dears.....
thanQ soo much... yes i ll b wrkin now widout thinkin abt d result..!!!
wil try ma best...wil concentrate on wrk...!!!
"karma" is wat only i ll thnk abt...
well akash is absolutely ryt....thinking expends a lot f energy dat cud hav been spent on actually doing experiencing n learning stuff...it only enriches lyk to actually learn 4m ur mistakes....v r nt alive 2 jst earn money n feed ourselves....v r here to learn n enrich ourselves as a human being...wherever our true calling lies...v will get to knw dat only as we move forwards in lyf n try different things...so v jst hav 2 stop thiknin too much n jst keep d zest2 move forwards alive in ourselves...
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